An album 3 years in the making has finally reached it's maturity. When the first version was lost in a tragic house fire 3 years prior, the Codependents had no choice but to begin building from the ground up. In that time their individual skill sets, styles, and interests evolved. The product of this incubation was a new, fully-realized, and cohesive project that can be proudly presented to their patient audience, as well as the rest of the world. This album will truly be a "rezerection."
released April 29, 2016
All tracks produced by Shadow Devereaux besides "Pieces" (prod. Surebert), and "Snow" (prod. Maulskull)
Additional guitar on "Oceanic" by Zach Jurcich
All lyrics written by Shadow Devereaux, Keenan Nerby, Justin Evans, and Riley Roberts
Album cover shot by Logan Kruse
Recorded, mixed, and mastered by Shadow Devereaux at Rezerected Records studio
Now I don’t even talk to you
every now and again.
It’s not so much of being alone
Its deeper in the end. See I
Lost a friend burning the memories.
Still you seem to be somehow the fucking cancer of my dreams.
The dancer to a beat tearing my heart from me.
How can we be so fragile? But so naïve.
Now a, rose grown in concrete, can’t really be alive so,
How are you still breathing?
Between your teeth, sliding lies.
No more pillow talk, good night
Fighting just to hate fuck.
It’s all alright well,
At least that’s what we’d make up.
Seasons change us years can,
Weather the soul. Losing people that we love,
Spinning out of our control.
A proper noun to fill that hole being told
You’re really something.
Don’t try to love me, I’m broken and I’m ugly.
There’s no god above me
With these angels wrecking lives.
Or maybe I’m The Who to blame for hiding behind these blue eyes, now?
We don't see each other, the way we used to
And honestly that's just something I'm not used to
I know you're bruised baby girl, my hearts bruised too
I guess I played a tune that you really couldn't groove to.
I would go all in, but i've lost it all
I just wanted the ins, on what it cost to call
Toll free she told me that the cost was small
So I would climb to her peaks, now watch me fall
I'm a masochist, go on slash my wrist
And whisper to me that you love me 'til the blackness hits
I like lucid love, and loving lucidly
And writing it all down on some loose leaf
I find the lies between the lines of the true things
And see the beauty in the ugly of my mood swings
Truth hurts because the pain is what the truth brings
And truthfully your lies are what makes this life soothing
I stopped my yawn for fear of dawn missing
I'd buy for you, my dear, a whole a pharmacy
A lot can change in the long run so we'd
Take our shoes off and fall asleep
Wasn't till after the bars we'd speak
A couple tough actors in the barber seat
It was shear enjoyment when the time was free
Silently I would brew on the few that cut back
I flew the coup. It wasn't you
It was you, the booze, and blunt wraps
Shredded those love raps
I don't attach
Cancerous type behavior
I'm about one prayer
Away from being damned
Cause someone was anger
Fake or not, fuck it. Come down and meet the maker
I'm nested in the manger ducking danger
Suck your savior
I'll be doing better if you don't come up for air
I saved my life for late now there's no room for error
Track Name: Snow
Time takes money
Counted down my dollars till my seconds were denied
Oliver (I love her), that was the twist
A DIY cover of a popular hit
Third eye ocular dominance is a delicate accomplishment
I relish in the constant bliss
But jealous ones want me off the trip
Between the drool and faucet drips
I'd be a fool to fall in it
My arms aren't shit. My rule of thumb
Pop it in and call it quits
I sit in my squalor
Wish I had a parlor and a butler who pours um tall and thick
Jack Torrence taught me all of this
Family is a constant hiss
I got work to do.
I'll hurt the fool that interrupts my shift
Into blood. In a crypt
Dull or not that shiv will stick
Chivalry is flourishing but I'm a chauvinist
With more to risk my motor clicks and sputters
My chapped lips mutter
The fucking art ripped my soul to bits.
I've hit rock bottom more than once and never bounced back
But found myself some freedom in the bottom of this ounce sack
Life is funny but laughings the best medicine
So smile when you can and when you can't you can pretend to
You've got it all together everything's perfect
And she's so beautiful commitments so worth it
When deep down you die to know what tomorrow brings
And sleep sound when it's not your time that you're borrowing
And fly freely with this pair of broken borrowed wings
They won't take you as for as you want to go though
Passing out to wake up and feel the sorrow sting
I know you feel like giving up and thats a no-no
Even when this battle called life feels like it's so-so
It's oh so important to go forth on most roads
Stop signs never kept me from my point b
If you have the right way that direction you should point, me
Right place wrong time draws the storyline to my life.
Adorable when you’re fighting for a breath that won’t come life
Surface, belly up. Don’t be nervous, it’s [life] perfect.
Vulnerability is serving a dish
Without any concern for us.
Distance keeps a burn in us
Resistance, keep consistency.
Pissed off people learn to love.
Existence is what’s keeping me
Churning in the acid butterfly’s absence keeps me hungry
Nothing now in my stomach
The whiskey wishing some things
Would be the same, but change is truly beautiful chaos.
Nothing remains un-changed
If you’re growing it just takes patience.
Flowing along with a cadence
Nameless. Brain on stupid.
Caught in makeshift-famous
State of REM dreaming lucidly.
I see things aren’t the way they used to be but,
That’s nothing new to me.
With this pair of broken wings
Teaching myself, once again, how to fly.
There isn’t anything I can’t handle, but I’ll risk dying to try life.
Track Name: Liquid Religion
Liquid religion. My mood needed a rinsing
Doomed by the system that they made inside my brain
Liquid religion. Dripping on a fifth one
Tripping like a victim who doesn't know his own name
Speak your mind, but fill it full.
Knowledge over gold.
Sitting in these clouds thinking,
“How could I ever get so low?”
No you probably didn’t know
The me that I used to be a time ago.
Thankfully a little dose was really
All that story wrote.
Now my third eye’s potent
To the motion we all call life.
Why blur my emotions?
Shit all the words won’t come out right
Love isn’t evil it’s more so feeble in a certain light.
So cut me to the bone
Until I’m more used to feeling alive.
I got the drive not stuck in neutral.
Living Kama Sutra.
Comfortable with my flaws, and all the flaws you knew before.
Gimme the go
Setting my goals to sway with the way of the river.
Living life in the “pause” without cause, labeled me a thinker.
A manic depressed drinker.
I pull my hoodie right up over my head
Strap a pair of Air Jordan's at the end of my legs
Now I'm stepping on the competition, yeah thats the mission
Now I'm shitting on the opposition, that's my position
So we hit em with a little bit of Ungh!
And we shining motherfucker like the sun
And we never been in second so we think for a second
Like damn motherfucker we the ones, boy
You couldn't step to us if you wanted to so miss the stairs
And if you looking for ecstasy we can get you there
So codependent, independent at the same time
We so offensive when we offend all of your lame rhymes
These four dudes but it feels like we got the same mind
We fucked the game up cause we played rough when it came time
Track Name: Little Help
Woke up here all alone
In a state that I can’t describe.
Bleeding, out of my eyes
Stuck in a blank space
That don’t account for time.
As I dine and wine down
With this Perfect little Medicine.
Taking off an edge that doesn’t seem to me
To be finally compressed.
Obsessed? Just a little
And that sadistic giggle gon’ make me smile.
Hang on so gentle I’m more sentimental now than vile.
As I ran a mile in your shoes I could feel the blisters.
Diminished figure off that liquor
Killing myself even quicker.
Just not as fast as she imagined.
They say I’m damaged I say it’s extra baggage.
Habits of burning cabbage until I vanish
Or I fucking choke.
Playing life for a joke.
Now I haven’t been too on the giving side
Of a fuck that you’ve applied for me
To abide by in a cry or die right mentality.
Undoubtedly speaking irrationally.
My habits no longer make me.
My conscience finally breaking me
Down, down, down.
So I drive slow attracting chaos.
A day off from mine [life]
Might be the day my mind decides to die.
Die die die die.
I fell from the sky and broke every limb on the way down
So I’m stuck inside motherfucking hell on earth
Until rebirth its where I stay now
So how bout you believe that I hate smiles but I praise frowns
My head hangs down a lot lately now like the angel of death
So I claim that crown, like how
Not in it for the money so I find it kinda funny that I stay - here
Got a lotta problems but i can’t really solve em
So I find my self caught up in some Day - beers
Oddities that follow me can never be forgotten
My outsides beautiful, my insides rotten
I’m at it morning or my brain stays snoring
Can’t seem to corner all the habits that I’m caught in
You can bet your life that I own it, I live life in the moment
Now i’m standing on top of the game like where the fuck my next opponent
And I made it out the bullshit, my flow resembles full clips
With an automatic fire and a will to be a killer
You can bet your ass I’m the culprit
And I’m proud,(yeah) I got 12 packs of that LOUD
Try to bring me back down to earth Imma kick you off of my cloud
And watch you fall down like rain
Ain’t nothing stay the same
If there is one thing guaranteed inside your life it’s the change
Who's to say who they choose to take
I'll rue the day that they lose their faith
In the mood to break in and loot the place
Church give up the collection plate
Learning ways to remove the weight of life
Or lack there of
With that insight I intend to write my bible with your blood
With some verses that you can't recite
Live at heights where you can't reach up
Every time you reach out you get the blade
And then you get the cut
You bleed for eighty years and then your sins have all stacked up
I'll audit you in front of my peers to see who you've become
Be gone. Begotten rotten
Stinking, numb I think he's done a lot of good
But damning him would mean I won
Indeed I need to read on how the Hell could manage him
I've landed in a position to kill off y'all so run
Resurrected like a dead kid headed to school with guns
The news is used for fun
They edit and play reruns
I let it convince each one
To never call a medic
If you bled I'll be drinking some
Never intended to never regret it
If I hadn't had killed for the right reason
I'm godly like the Son
Godly like no one.
Track Name: Flu Game
I’m so sick wit it.
Melting faces watching them shape shift.
Had a heart in a million pieces
Only use it if I need fixed.
Rude releasing demons
In this songlike form, but refuse to be a Jesus
Of what you consider normalcy.
Now we’ll see once the storm
Lets up enough to see.
What’s been right in front of your face
And what’s been hiding underneath.
The thin line between reality and what you believe.
One that I tend to consume that’ll keep me stuck
In the middle of each.
Heart pulsating to the beat.
Eyes fixated on the loose leaf.
Collecting all the thoughts that
My blank mind loosens free.
Polishing up these rhymes
With their different schemes.
To keep it relevant while developing a new scene.
Now the booze brings me nothing.
It just coats these insecurities.
So I’m drinking til’ the day ends
Writing, it is so endearing, huh?
Lovely lover boy loving love
Until it killed him loveless.
So really what is love
If the loveless isn’t dying, cousin?
I'm an artist, surprise! IF you couldn't see
Was a father to an artist who's real father really couldn't be
Often caught up in a world full of whirlwinds
Still standing still as it tilts and the world spins
I'm off my axis, my life has done a backflip
Landed on my feet and now it's time to get it cracking'
I'm an addict, addicted to this boom bap
Slick with the spit when I sip an consume tracks
Wearing kicks that could break a few necks though
Flu Game 12's on deck when I step slow
Making it easy so that you can see my feet
Written verses in my dreams because I do this in my sleep
Guess I'm set out to be nothing less than great though
Contemplated suicide this music was my scapegoat
Murder was the crime instead of time, I laid low
Lend me your attention spans before I take those
One part rhythm. One part syndrome
Sipping Rex cold sent from the sin zone
If Hell is on fire then heaven is windblown
The chance I'll get higher is the same as dying in homes
I've never been old
At least I've never been told
I'm too old to booze, smoke, fuck, upchuck, then lend hope
Break poems down like tent poles
Living life tired
That's not what my bed was meant for
Put me back to sleep
See how my dreams end
Seems a sea of meanings can drowned out the meaning
Your shallow bitch-fits can't kick it in my deep end
Think of existence and what it means to cease it
You drink through the week to repeat it through the weekend
God bless substance otherwise we couldn't be friends
Music a platform
My thought can descend
A rotten reason
I won't stop so pretend.
Track Name: Hight
This world is a throat grip.
This dynasty, dystopic.
Ugly coyote getting wily from the coke drip.
Finally the hope glimpse is written off as horse shit.
Means we're stable with a hard shell.
Get it? No you don't, bitch.
Faux cliques, hold this
While I go take a piss
Dip some molly. She blows dick
Then back to the party, so slick.
Bro-tank spilled four drinks
No thanks to hoe-cake
They're grinding genitals and teeth
Beats me how this culture came to be
I'm increasingly more disappointed with free speech
I told my friends I need to roll a bat
Smoke and sleep
Roll out of bed then we
Can steal that land they stole from me.
Note this, I hold a key.
Hopeless, this whole machine.
Atonement won't do a thing.
You fucked up, fucked us, stole some dreams.
Generation disconnect, enough's enough stop holding.
Next phone I see is getting fucking pawned for groceries.
I’m losing sleep as lions feast on sheep.
Dying to keep my head afloat, but somehow
It just creeps slowly up on me.
Crawling quickly up my spinal chord.
All you do is sink, so tell me
What the fuck you dying for?
I lie and I hoard to drink and snort
I am always burning.
These are the days of our lives
Or slowly we’re learning.
As the hand on the clock turns
Your candle’s running out.
Telling her that he loved her
Only seemed to dumb her down.
Don’t you hear that sound?
That is your mind taking full advantage.
Are you with me now? Baby you don’t understand
Karma kisses on my calluses reopening old wounds.
Drama pisses on the challenges slamming shut opportunity.
Lately, it’s getting a little complicated.
Blatantly, I need to piece me back together
Before it’s too late and everything that is meant to be
Broken and tattered.
I’ll make the toast: “Here’s to you, and your happy never after.”
Reach inside myself pull out my heart, pull out my art
I pull out a martyr that dies to live to be smarter
I am the gift of an artist by being the swiftest and smartest
That I can be, I can see that I can be one of the hardest
Working people you've probably had the chance to lay your eyes on
Chances come and go just like the songs up on your iPod
So listen in, this requires more than listening
Like feel the energy of all the songs that I've been christening
And envision things, come feel the euphoria the vision brings
Been on the ground for so long I need something to replace some missing wings
And I found it, I found it
This dreams the size of a mountain
No stopping me from getting what I see, so pop some corn and keep watching
I dream more than I really should
It's not normal
But I think that it's really good
I'm feeling formal
This lifestyles so suitable and I'm stuck inside the crucible
The melting pot can hold a lot as long as the noose can hold
Track Name: Turned Off
If I should die I'd like to die willingly
Whatever willing means.
Death's such a silly thing.
The only one who doesn't give a fuck what you really think.
Holster all your guns.
I got your guts to feel me.
You'll concuss, the curdling
Blood is enough preserving.
She saw the way the world works
And chose enough's enough hurting.
Suction cupped to each other's cuts
Cause flirting had no rush
If it wasn't crush and kill the thirst.
He didn't matter outside his mattress.
She liked the match lit.
His life was average.
Her type's stronger so her life's harder.
But we live life longer.
We don't rewrite our worst.
Live like songbirds.
I'm not digging lawn over a wrong turn.
Readily caught up in a rhythm.
Life can be so indifferent.
Life can be so unforgiving.
I made it a mission to tell my friends
I loved and missed them.
Kissed her wrist to withstand the pain
That’s been resting in my chest.
It’s not that we forget we get caught up
That’s the difference.
Without a moment’s stop to rest
We lose sight of those who meant more to us
I can’t pretend that it don’t effect me
Neglecting precious things until we’re
Taken by the throat to Kill the King.
The art of touching without contact
Is next to nothing.
I know why you can’t call back
I’m still right here waiting for something.
An angel sang to me I tried to fix her broken wings.
By the time I awoke from my sleep
There was nothing there but me.
Nothing there but me.
Won’t you bring me a dream?
It's death before dishonor but should death be this honored
I guess I'm caught up in some karma or some good melodrama
Emotionless to say the least with every piece of my heart
I should of probably been ceased but I've increased from the start
I can find my friends in darker places
Friends who left the world to see some other old familiar faces
I don't blame them
I just miss you when you really not around
And since your absence I've been falling down
But i can't seem to find the ground
So I'm lost without you
I've been lost without you
I can't seem to find meaning to my walk without you
I'm not really myself when I'm not without you
The only way to help is to talk about you
Track Name: Laid
I'm a barstool barnacle
With sorrows for the bar to kill
All floats down to the bottom most days
The sun gets further than you thought it could
I'm getting dizzy, dark, and comical
I think I took a problem pill
Rain until that shot is filled, K?
Lava licks my hardened throat
Been a big shot with the big fish
Drinking shit my parents won't
I'm a fan of flames that flicker very close
Close enough I chose to grab ahold
Fused my palm in place
I don't know what to say
Put up with a lot of pain
I'm surprised I called your name
I'm a guy who thinks insane
Is some type of working brain
That I can learn from
And yearn for, in turn I did babe
But unlike most days where the shit don't phase
I get home sick and think
That this wasn't a break
It was a breach at most, but we fix those things
I don't preach but hope, was all she gave
I think I get places pieces where they fit in.
Fled from a light leading nowhere
Life got caught up as a cynic.
Fucking with my id it’s
taking over as a new sickness.
Diminished critics visions once
I give them all of her heart.
I think I’m finished.
Permission to hit eject if this effect my inner-stress
And makes me dream of better days.
The weather in head stays raining puddles
You’re clowning if you don’t understand
Where all the hounds went.
The sound leaving your lips
Makes me exist in another dimension.
The incision under my wrist skin
Only proves that I’m alive.
Until I die within myself at the Hight
Of my destruction.
I wish you nothing more than to live,
To live again and try.
So let it breathe as I kiss the sky.
They told me I was too late
I responded I didn’t even try to
Catch your eyes with my eyes
And give you weary knees.
You’re my new disease as I breathe to be
It's 10 o'clock in the morning, I just rolled outta bed
I slide inside some 1's and then I roll one up for my head
The color in my weed, match the color in my 3's
Roll another full of trees, I got plenty so we chiefen
The sky's the limit we can try and reach it
And then collab up in the booth because we need a feature
I ain't mad though, this pen full of dabs hoe
Assholes the label that they gave us cause we act out
You other rappers act dope cause your flat broke
You sinking to the bottom I'm at the top doing back strokes
Floating on a dream that I never seem to see
But I know that it's there so I keep chasing it
My pathetic little being, yeah who I used to be
I'll be constantly, upgrading it
So don't try fucking with me, unless you fucking with me
Or you puffing these trees, we can lay here
Track Name: AHGTH
So lets be honest, the hottest products regardless
Of these artists or the martyrs turning thoughts into these sonnets
Honestly we are the farthest ahead of all of these artless
Pseudo rapping targets who claim that they are the hardest
But really, we are the heartless RezErected from the darkest
Dingy fucking areas of all these places we had started
So don't give us no bullshit about knowing our department
Keep it zipped shut, before you're zipped up as a carcass
And this is my life choice, it' suffices as the right choice
For me to say what I feel and you to like my voice
My advice for you is try when you feeling like you could die
The darkest night will come before the brightest day and that's no lie
So keep your head up, when you're fed up with the bullshit
When they go to shoot you down you bounce back with the full clip
And on the real hope it all treats you well
No matter what we feel all these hounds go to hell
I count my bong hits
How many hours makes it a long trip?
If the fog's think I think only of the small shit
The car's fixed, but the driver is a bit nostalgic
Every pit stop he has to pour some out for the fallen
The code's not letting me in
I tried threatening it
Codependency is remembering what was once
Not what is
A double front. A mask to kids
Mastership of ample tricks
Don't dance with him
His moves are fixed
Go move your chips
He'll use um quick
Crude with quips
And maybe baby is some sort of masochist
I harassed her wit
She loved my sick, twisted way of viewing shit
The loop will play
You'll boo or sway
My crew decays your king
Fuck every king. They fuck everything
But what the fuck does that mean?
Dead your ego, set you free
Have no destiny.
No one has a soul.
A mind is all that you'll receive
The only resurrection happening is with my team
All hounds go to hell, till the devil sets them free.
We’re all dust
If you look at life in a bigger picture.
Regardless of your stardom
Or your synthetic figure.
It’s all love fammo
Fuck with this organic elixir
It’s known to fix her.
Keep your nose on the grind
Not just the illicit powders.
All hounds go to hell or so I’ve been told lately.
I flipped my whole world on it’s head
Luckily this music here saved me.
You’re slowly fading.
And now we have been fully exposed
RezErected it’s starting to show.
Rising up from the flames, buried in the snow.
I thought that I’d know by now,
But of course this isn’t perfect.
Caught with a grown man’s frown
Face of a clown it still seems I deserved it.
I think I’m nervous.
Impervious to a new found purpose.
Still just a burden on the surface seeming nerveless.
These paid dues aren’t purchased so hold open the curtains
While we burn these over selfish, self serving, servants.
Best believe I am the serpent. You remain a Captain Ahab
Salty sinking as I’m thinking is right to watch you drown?
Track Name: Oceanic
While you talked about the sky I added why it's blue
Why the ocean gets to choose
Even leaves don't leave for too,
Long infused with flattery
My sharpened teeth through chattering
Has landed me skin deep in meat, I choose.
I chewed. I knew what blood tastes like
But yours would make me drool
If I had a pen it'd be a masterpiece I drew
But I speak my pictures through my words
And a painting takes a lot of um
A tired one
A hired gun should come and violently
Show him how it's done in fact his home has got so quiet he'd
Know his time has come
Probably never hear a siren scream
You're falling on your blade if you think you can take more privacy
You've always been awake
But the rest could kill anxiety
You've always been away
And in a way that help
But if need be lie to me and find the peace within yourself
Rely on me if my reply could keep this shelved
So high and out of reach
I ride it out to sea (see)
A lion (lying) mouth can't feast when not allowed (aloud) to speak
Keep drowning me
I’m sinking quicker, I’m drowning slowly will i feel the bottom
I’m drinking liquor, I’m smoking ozs to kill the problem
I fall awake quicker then i can fall asleep now
If you’d tear apart your chest maybe you could feel how
My tears fall and you’ve always been there to catch them
you always told me that you’d always be my best friend
distance is consistent you’re telling me that it’s relevant
I tell you i just like to dream for the hell of it
So i fall deeper inside my dreams i’m a sleeper
You shake me to wake me up to reality all these people
Around me look at me like i don’t fit in because i don’t
So I tell myself I’m different it’s whatever floats the boat
So hold, so hold on
As we sink quickly, and drown slowly
You think you know me but I don’t know me, just be my homie
the ones before you were never lonely like we were lonely
So hold my hand and let us sink quickly, drown slowly
I paint her in the clouds
Where we pretend we can’t be found.
Her fingertips surround my fragile face
And then I drown in a sea of emotions.
Caught in an endless motion.
So devoted to the fact I didn’t know
What it meant to feel alive.
I’ve died a thousand times
Tend to find life in your eyes.
Still image on the canvas but
The canvas can’t instill light inside.
Just a flickering star burning out
Before it starts to give direction.
Infected, reckless, stressed.
No please don’t wreck this
Masterpiece turns disaster in about a week’s time.
It got back to me that you were wallowing in lies.
Turning hate into sour grapes
Laughing at my face as I’d sip slow.
Been running in place standing still
Still nowhere to go.
Perfect what perspective can place inside of you.
Principle portrays what is human.
What is truth?
My picture decays, the rain is everlasting.
It fits her to say I’m not insane just finally happy now.
Jesus what an absolutely stunning collection of hip-hop. If I have to be a dick, this album is more of a mix tape in style, the aesthetics of each song is just so different, there's a certain level of narrative disconnect. That said, the actual songs themselves are fucking ill. Packed with dope features, each one matched with Scott's production makes for a genuinely rewarding listen. Rest easy man, you'll be missed. always_kos